hello...remember me?

oh dear, i hv just found this blog again, after so many years abandoning it. i thought the blogspot team has deleted it or something but no. this blog stays.im s0rry but i have been cheating on this blog with some other cooler websites,pls dont be mad. omg reading all those posts in this blog made me..smile,and not to brag but amazed at my writing skill i used to have. ohmygosh like the poems and stuff!i was cheesy. haha. but it felt good. feels good to be back.

THIS ROAD

THIS ROAD. by the magnificentme


It’s been a thorny road ,I know
They prick me no matter where I go
All the pain,
Not much of a gain
This road ,is what I chose.

The destination’s a mystery
Enduring the torment and misery
Have to cope
And not just to hope
This road ,is what I chose.

At times ,I wondered
If I’ll ever survive on
This road….

It makes you wana scream
It makes you wana cry
You called out someone’s name
To find out no one’s there
It’s inexplicable
It’s just deplorable on
This road…

Keep running on the track
Cuz there’s no turning back
That is the only way
Or else you’ll be the prey
You have to continue
Once you choose to walk on
This road…

This time , you see me
I’m crying..
Next time ,you see me
I’m smiling..

It’s been a long and winding road
It’s a matter of time before I explode
For the pain
Not much you can gain
But this road
Is what I chose..

uprising

this is a yet to be released song by muse,found it just now.well true i LOVE muse n all thats not the point here but hey look at the lyrics n even the title.if translated into arabic it means INTIFADA.i mean i dunno who they are dedicating this song to,but when i look at the lyrics i feelSO connected to it,i feel like its calling MUSLIMS to rise up n to take control of the world now.RITE??



The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They’ll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around<----(the West makes ppl see Islam as the root oF agony)
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious <-----(Palestine is ours!)

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you’d see that
We should never be afraid to die<-----(call for jihad,see!)

(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, <----Islam shud take control of the world
it’s time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey … hey .. hey!
(repeat)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey … hey .. hey!
(repeat)

oh US mind ur own business and leave iran alone ALREADY!

i was so furious with all these st*pid news abt iranian election results which were claimed to be fraud by whoelse,the f*ck*ng policeman of the world.they re just scared of ahmadinejad anyways.US cannot accept it if sum1 else is stronger than em or just refused to bow to em.ahmadinejad is one of the islamic leaders(or maybe he's the only one?) who are not afraid of voicing out his opinions and openly condemns and refuses to acknowledge the holysh*t state of israel(not like sum other leaders u now,condemning israel in their hearts,ok if they ever DID ).the best part is he even claimed that Israel will vanish from this world and Palestinian,the so called refugees-in-their-own-land will be able to go home someday.and the funniest part is his statement that "israel must be wiped OFF the map"has created a havoc and restlessness among the Westerns.even all the great scholars of the west tried to analyse the statement so intensely.mann,didnt know YOU aRE that coward!
okay if you have NO idea who ahmadinejad is or y the west hates him so much,these are sum quick facts abt him:
1.he is a civil engineer
2.he is currently the president of Iran
3.he refuses to stop dvlpmt of Iran's nuclear program despite UN security council's(or US in short) order."if it is so bad,why are they having it??"says ahmadinejad.KUDOS for yaaa!!!
4.he accused the United Nations of being "one-sided, stacked against the world of Islam."(WHIch is SOOOO FREAKING TRUE).He has openly opposed the veto power given to the five permanent members of the UN Security Council-BRAVO your highness!
5.if you read ANY news coming from the West,it will only be full of condemnations twds ahmadinejad.
6.so he cuts interests in the banking system,so wat.that is the righteous things to do.trust me HE SHOULD EVEN BAN IT(as proposed by Islam).
7.he suggested to Europe on settlement of the Zionists in Europe or big lands such as Canada and Alaska so they would be able to own their own land-->yeah yeaa u wana help em sooo much then freakin help em already!ZZzz
8.he bravely wrote a letter to Bush as an invitation to monotheism and justice, which are common to all divine prophets.--->he is soo brave i wana cry right now.
9.n as usual,iran has been on U.S. list of state sponsors of international terrorism(hhm i guess any1 who refuses to abide by their rule will be in it,y dont u try check ur names,lol)

as for me,all the claims and actions made by ahmedinejad were very reasonable,based on the teachings of Islam and it is his right n his duty(OUR's too,actually) to protect the Islamic world since we're so much oppressed by the West already.
whoelse is there to stand for our Palestinian brothers(n sisters) if not us.

just before obama taking over presidency frm Bush,remember that time?Zionists had been attacking em like crazy and nobody's making a big fuss out of it..did the US do anything abt it or to be precise,was there any actions taken to protect the helpless refugees,if they truly wana become the policeman of the world?

so US.shut the h*ll up already and leave us alone!!

happy mother;s day

ibu.
i really love you.sorry i didnt send u anything frm india dis yer,not even cards,i am sooo sorry!next yer when i go back to msia im gona buy you anything that u wanted.i promise dat(what abt a laptop?hmm with internet connections so that you can BLOG n u can read mine and abglong's!:P)!i'm sorry abglg's a jerk.i dunno what is up with him but it'd better be GOOD!GRR!
ibu i really admire you.you are such a strong lady.n you stay strong until today.
i can see sufferings dat uve gone through when i looked into your sad eyes,n yes u r standing still when all others are trying to bring you down.
ibu,i often wondered from where all those strength had come from.u didnt even eat that much!but i think i knew the answer now.its your uncompromised faith that u hv in Allah dat keeps you going.u hold on tightly to what u believe and dat keeps you on the right track.
ibu,i know dat it ain't easy to raise your 4 stubborn n stone headed children all by yourself.those tears you shed,your sleepless nights worrying about us,i know it ibu.to some extent,i think i do understand.im sorry ibu,me too,too helpless to help you.what else can i do other than apologize?
ibu im sorry our story ended so tragically.but maybe it's just a start of something better..i still believe dat this is just another test for us.so we hv to keep holding on.
ibu i'm learning to accept our fate,im sorry that im taking a longer time than what i should have.ibu it's so true when u said nobody's gona help us when we're in trouble so we hv to be independent and not rely on others,i can see dat clearly with my eyes after all these years.
ibu,when i was small i thought that u were the best mother ever existed in this world.n you know what,now i think that u r even better than that!
thank you for evrything ibu.
sorry if i'm not capable of being the kinda daughter dat u hoped for,but i will try my best to be the daughter u don't regret having.
i love you,ibu.
happy mother's day!

(ibu's going to umrah with ayin dis 1st june.i'm so happy for them,im sorry but i think im gona cry now)

so dats my name.

i hv rarely used my real name except in occasions requiring formality or when writing forms,exam papers etc.ive been called anor eversince the 1st day of my primary school because a frnd who had the same name as mine suggested it(so dat she can be called hidayah)and i,didnt know y,blindly agreed to that(should hv fought for the name!).so dats how i got dat name.when i was a kid i didnt really like my real name because my mom alwys told me dat my name was given by my father instead of her n she wanted to give me a cuter name like putri sumthing2 lol.back then i alwys thought that my siblings have better names than mine because they were my mom's idea and mine was my dad's.besides their names hv 3 words (ahmad syafiq nazmi,ahmad shah nazrin,ahmad imran hakimi)and mine was only 2 plus its not unique at all!so i took anor for my real name n hidayah for my 'other' name.well now i think dat hidayah aint dat bad a name.its beautiful in fact not that i wana brag abt it but i think dat i should be proud of my real name.i still believe that names are prayers too.luckily anor has some meaning too(if read annur).true like whats the point of having good names(u hv nooo idea for how many nights(or years)did ur parents racked their brains to find u a name) if in the end it only can be seen in papers and forms because u don't even bother to use it.n yes now i AM grateful that my name is not as lengthy as my brothers because ppl here think that binti is a name too:\.and if i were to hv children one day ill keep their names short,simple but meaningful n i will not allow their frnds to call em other than that(future psycho mommy haha),kidding.anyway.my point is,i love my name.hidayah is me.anor is me too.

peace.

5 b4 5.

time flies.no.i'd rather say time speeds(sounds weird though).or accelerates.doesnt matter,pretty much the same.i reckoned that time moves so fast i could hardly catch up with it.so yes its been quite a while since i made any sense here in my blog.
revising one hadith.a very popular one too.
grab 5 before 5.

health before sickness
youth before decrepitude
wealth before poverty
leisure before work
life before death

n me being busy as ever,i wondered if i could grab any 5 before the other 5.am i even tryinna grab it?

seeing the dead baby in the labour theatre just now reminds me of death which is so near,yet forgotten.
difference is,the baby died and would straight away go to heaven.
we'll die not even knowing if it's as a muslim or otherwise(nauzubillahiminzalik),save going to heaven!?

forgive me.dear Allah.
for im nothing but a sinner..
dilate our bosom dear God.
from the hatred for others,
from holding grudge twds anyone,
protect us dear Allah
from the hatred of others
or from the evil hearts.
and if we die ya Allah.
ease our death with shahadah..
AMINN.