uprising

this is a yet to be released song by muse,found it just now.well true i LOVE muse n all thats not the point here but hey look at the lyrics n even the title.if translated into arabic it means INTIFADA.i mean i dunno who they are dedicating this song to,but when i look at the lyrics i feelSO connected to it,i feel like its calling MUSLIMS to rise up n to take control of the world now.RITE??



The paranoia is in bloom, the PR
The transmissions will resume
They’ll try to push drugs
Keep us all dumbed down and hope that
We will never see the truth around<----(the West makes ppl see Islam as the root oF agony)
(So come on!)

Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious <-----(Palestine is ours!)

Interchanging mind control
Come let the revolution take its toll if you could
Flick the switch and open your third eye, you’d see that
We should never be afraid to die<-----(call for jihad,see!)

(So come on!)

Rise up and take the power back, <----Islam shud take control of the world
it’s time that
The fat cats had a heart attack, you know that
Their time is coming to an end
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey … hey .. hey!
(repeat)

Chorus
They will not force us
They will stop degrading us
They will not control us
We will be victorious

Hey .. hey … hey .. hey!
(repeat)

oh US mind ur own business and leave iran alone ALREADY!

i was so furious with all these st*pid news abt iranian election results which were claimed to be fraud by whoelse,the f*ck*ng policeman of the world.they re just scared of ahmadinejad anyways.US cannot accept it if sum1 else is stronger than em or just refused to bow to em.ahmadinejad is one of the islamic leaders(or maybe he's the only one?) who are not afraid of voicing out his opinions and openly condemns and refuses to acknowledge the holysh*t state of israel(not like sum other leaders u now,condemning israel in their hearts,ok if they ever DID ).the best part is he even claimed that Israel will vanish from this world and Palestinian,the so called refugees-in-their-own-land will be able to go home someday.and the funniest part is his statement that "israel must be wiped OFF the map"has created a havoc and restlessness among the Westerns.even all the great scholars of the west tried to analyse the statement so intensely.mann,didnt know YOU aRE that coward!
okay if you have NO idea who ahmadinejad is or y the west hates him so much,these are sum quick facts abt him:
1.he is a civil engineer
2.he is currently the president of Iran
3.he refuses to stop dvlpmt of Iran's nuclear program despite UN security council's(or US in short) order."if it is so bad,why are they having it??"says ahmadinejad.KUDOS for yaaa!!!
4.he accused the United Nations of being "one-sided, stacked against the world of Islam."(WHIch is SOOOO FREAKING TRUE).He has openly opposed the veto power given to the five permanent members of the UN Security Council-BRAVO your highness!
5.if you read ANY news coming from the West,it will only be full of condemnations twds ahmadinejad.
6.so he cuts interests in the banking system,so wat.that is the righteous things to do.trust me HE SHOULD EVEN BAN IT(as proposed by Islam).
7.he suggested to Europe on settlement of the Zionists in Europe or big lands such as Canada and Alaska so they would be able to own their own land-->yeah yeaa u wana help em sooo much then freakin help em already!ZZzz
8.he bravely wrote a letter to Bush as an invitation to monotheism and justice, which are common to all divine prophets.--->he is soo brave i wana cry right now.
9.n as usual,iran has been on U.S. list of state sponsors of international terrorism(hhm i guess any1 who refuses to abide by their rule will be in it,y dont u try check ur names,lol)

as for me,all the claims and actions made by ahmedinejad were very reasonable,based on the teachings of Islam and it is his right n his duty(OUR's too,actually) to protect the Islamic world since we're so much oppressed by the West already.
whoelse is there to stand for our Palestinian brothers(n sisters) if not us.

just before obama taking over presidency frm Bush,remember that time?Zionists had been attacking em like crazy and nobody's making a big fuss out of it..did the US do anything abt it or to be precise,was there any actions taken to protect the helpless refugees,if they truly wana become the policeman of the world?

so US.shut the h*ll up already and leave us alone!!

happy mother;s day

ibu.
i really love you.sorry i didnt send u anything frm india dis yer,not even cards,i am sooo sorry!next yer when i go back to msia im gona buy you anything that u wanted.i promise dat(what abt a laptop?hmm with internet connections so that you can BLOG n u can read mine and abglong's!:P)!i'm sorry abglg's a jerk.i dunno what is up with him but it'd better be GOOD!GRR!
ibu i really admire you.you are such a strong lady.n you stay strong until today.
i can see sufferings dat uve gone through when i looked into your sad eyes,n yes u r standing still when all others are trying to bring you down.
ibu,i often wondered from where all those strength had come from.u didnt even eat that much!but i think i knew the answer now.its your uncompromised faith that u hv in Allah dat keeps you going.u hold on tightly to what u believe and dat keeps you on the right track.
ibu,i know dat it ain't easy to raise your 4 stubborn n stone headed children all by yourself.those tears you shed,your sleepless nights worrying about us,i know it ibu.to some extent,i think i do understand.im sorry ibu,me too,too helpless to help you.what else can i do other than apologize?
ibu im sorry our story ended so tragically.but maybe it's just a start of something better..i still believe dat this is just another test for us.so we hv to keep holding on.
ibu i'm learning to accept our fate,im sorry that im taking a longer time than what i should have.ibu it's so true when u said nobody's gona help us when we're in trouble so we hv to be independent and not rely on others,i can see dat clearly with my eyes after all these years.
ibu,when i was small i thought that u were the best mother ever existed in this world.n you know what,now i think that u r even better than that!
thank you for evrything ibu.
sorry if i'm not capable of being the kinda daughter dat u hoped for,but i will try my best to be the daughter u don't regret having.
i love you,ibu.
happy mother's day!

(ibu's going to umrah with ayin dis 1st june.i'm so happy for them,im sorry but i think im gona cry now)

so dats my name.

i hv rarely used my real name except in occasions requiring formality or when writing forms,exam papers etc.ive been called anor eversince the 1st day of my primary school because a frnd who had the same name as mine suggested it(so dat she can be called hidayah)and i,didnt know y,blindly agreed to that(should hv fought for the name!).so dats how i got dat name.when i was a kid i didnt really like my real name because my mom alwys told me dat my name was given by my father instead of her n she wanted to give me a cuter name like putri sumthing2 lol.back then i alwys thought that my siblings have better names than mine because they were my mom's idea and mine was my dad's.besides their names hv 3 words (ahmad syafiq nazmi,ahmad shah nazrin,ahmad imran hakimi)and mine was only 2 plus its not unique at all!so i took anor for my real name n hidayah for my 'other' name.well now i think dat hidayah aint dat bad a name.its beautiful in fact not that i wana brag abt it but i think dat i should be proud of my real name.i still believe that names are prayers too.luckily anor has some meaning too(if read annur).true like whats the point of having good names(u hv nooo idea for how many nights(or years)did ur parents racked their brains to find u a name) if in the end it only can be seen in papers and forms because u don't even bother to use it.n yes now i AM grateful that my name is not as lengthy as my brothers because ppl here think that binti is a name too:\.and if i were to hv children one day ill keep their names short,simple but meaningful n i will not allow their frnds to call em other than that(future psycho mommy haha),kidding.anyway.my point is,i love my name.hidayah is me.anor is me too.

peace.

5 b4 5.

time flies.no.i'd rather say time speeds(sounds weird though).or accelerates.doesnt matter,pretty much the same.i reckoned that time moves so fast i could hardly catch up with it.so yes its been quite a while since i made any sense here in my blog.
revising one hadith.a very popular one too.
grab 5 before 5.

health before sickness
youth before decrepitude
wealth before poverty
leisure before work
life before death

n me being busy as ever,i wondered if i could grab any 5 before the other 5.am i even tryinna grab it?

seeing the dead baby in the labour theatre just now reminds me of death which is so near,yet forgotten.
difference is,the baby died and would straight away go to heaven.
we'll die not even knowing if it's as a muslim or otherwise(nauzubillahiminzalik),save going to heaven!?

forgive me.dear Allah.
for im nothing but a sinner..
dilate our bosom dear God.
from the hatred for others,
from holding grudge twds anyone,
protect us dear Allah
from the hatred of others
or from the evil hearts.
and if we die ya Allah.
ease our death with shahadah..
AMINN.

sunday sunday

sunday sunday
don't go away
sunday sunday
my only loyal holiday
sunday sunday
can't you just stay?
sunday sunday
what else should i say
sunday sunday
you'll go anyway..

sunday sunday
just walk away!
sunday sunday
go!don't delay!!
sunday sunday
to hell with sunday
cause tomorrow's monday
and the next day's tuesday
mayday mayday!
wait till it's saturday
then it will be sunday
all over again.(damn tak rhyme!)



moral of the story: if you wana walk away that bad..LIKE I CARE. :)

this post is not supposed to be in this blog.

***** is freaking rich,how i didn't know.*****'s house resembles a castle!!(or vice versa)


why,i've been messing up with rich jerk,n i dont even have a clue!
with that.i rest my case.

done&done.

(wondering what's the fate 4 tomorrow)

the scene i could never forget

"don't bother giving him blood"
"this is not a case that is expected to live anyway"
harsh.heartless.cruel.
yes,listening to those sentences uttered so indifferently in a very normal tone of voice had somewhat taken me aback.blood continued gushing out from the bowel and mesentry of the patient who was lying helplessly unconscious on the operation table.
but as cruel as it might sound to anyone,the burden of fear carried by the operating surgeon was way more unbearable.no one knew how hard it was for him to even assemble those words into sentences.and no one could ever describe the frustrations he bore.but he did what he had to and what he could do.resecting whatever he was able to take out,and closing the abdomen to wrap up the unfinished surgery.he had lost.he was defeated by the brutalilty of the cancer.its viciousness happened to know no boundaries.
i stood just next to the scrubbing post grad,watching him unflaggingly suctioning out the oozing blood coming out from almost everywhere.the intestine was eventually submerged in a pool of blood.it was scary,seeing it.eventhough i wasn't the one doing the surgery but i felt drained.and exhausted.
despite the fact that the abdominal incision was finally closed, it was distressing knowing that the abdomen continued to bleed within.
i wonder if the patient is still alive,while i am writing this.
but i really do hope he survives,at least to say goodbye to his beloved ones.
it's not the surgeon who determines the death of the patient,it's all up to Allah afterall.

but the gushing of blood,soaking the surgeon's OT gown and the pool of blood streaming down the floor would be a scene i could never forget.

have you ever really loved a woman????

well dis is just for fun,i saw this post at sum1's blog and decided to try it.kinda thrilling when you don't know what will come out as the answer for the questions provided.ironically,that's how life works,no one knows(except for Allah) what will happen tomorrow,not even the greatest fortuneteller.
okay the rules are you need to shuffle whatever player you are listening to right now and click next for every question and write whatever song you get as the answer no matter how silly it might be.:P

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY
tearin up my heart

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
L.O.V.E :)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
supplication(true true)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
i'm like a bird(it's a sunday after all!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
i've seen

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
dream

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
moonlight sonata(aww)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
jangan pisahkan(sob sob)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
satu hari di hari raya(haha)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Rocket.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
All over again.?

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
When you believe

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Akhir rasa ini ?

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Not that type of girl.

WHAT WILL/DID YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Saujana.(will not dance at my wedding anyway)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
if i let you go(sampai hati...)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
A twist in my story

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Hold on

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Permaidani(duhh apa kaitan)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
The reason

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Prisoner of love(gomenasai!!!)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Have you ever really loved a woman????

the diffident and abashed creature.

The shy creature refused to show his face.
("this is not for display",he said, earnestly before the photo was taken)






After abundant of persuasions,the shy yet unidentified creature agreed to show the normal half of his face.Rumor has it that the other half was badly scarred to the ultimate ugliness.Is it true?






so the question was finally answered.
the thing that the shy creature tried to hide from being publicized(or criticized) was his asymmetrical front teeth! :P










(dear Allah,protect kimi from the evilness and harshness of life,in the world and the hereafter.AMIN)

ban reality tv show in msia<--vote for dis!

i am sick of it.seeing those reality shows searching for new talents in singing,dancing,acting etc popping out like mushrooms after the rain in Malaysia.i see more harm than benefit in this trend.and it totally ruins the mentality of the people especially youngsters('oldsters' not to be excluded though).it is so out of control,this culture.no pressure from any party,no limitation,no barrier.i think that this is just wayyy too much.somebody should voice this out and stop all this nonsense.thousands of youngsters,okay now that they are opened for a wider range of age,malaysians should i say,come swarming for the auditions hoping that they could be the next mawi(not his real name).i used to watch this kinda show.at 1st i thought it was fun,seeing the contestants,one after another,leaving the show because of lack of votes but just imagine the money the audience used to vote for this people could feed millions of starving children in Africa,India etc etc,or it could be used to help Palestinians by providing medicines,foods,weapons etc etc.I regret supporting this kinda show by even watching it.In the end,what good has mawi(not his real name) bring for Islam or for the country?Or by any of reality tv stars?And the thought of becoming popular and being indulged with fame(cum money) has poisoned the minds of seemingly everyone,even the small kids.Finding a new idol to be worshipped has been a custom.While we are sinking,those Gog and Magog continue digging,i guess they should have been free by now.What i meant is we are in the last age,for god's sake!And the Zionists are taking over the world.They're becoming stronger n stronger yet we are becoming weaker and weaker.This kinda show has weakened us!So,with all due respect i urge everyone,EVERYONE to stop supporting this kind of programmes.Rise people.wake up,stop watching em,stop wasting your money to vote for destruction of your own nation.we have too much of entertainment that our spirit and strength are becoming paralysed progressively.

it is SO painful being helpless seeing this harmful event taking over.its like seeing a malignant tumor growing yet unable to resect it.the cancer is scary.the metastases is even scarier.so if you are itching or addicted to vote,vote for this-->ban reality tv show in msia.

103:1-3(al ASR)

By the time.
Verily Man is in loss.
Except such as have Faith and do righteous deeds and (join together) in the mutual enjoining the Truth and of patience and Constancy.

the significance of MY existence..

Sangat sukar untuk menterjemahkan dengan kata-kata perasaan aku tatkala ini. Sepertinya bernyawa sepertinya tidak. Segala kekalutan dan ketragisan telah melahirkan sebuah perasaan yang kosong. Seolah-olah mahu hidup perasaan itu tetapi terlalu sepi. Terlalu sunyi dan sendiri. Perasaan itu lantas seolah-olah tidak mengerti lagi. Apa dicita selama ini.Apa dikejar ke hari ni.Lalu tidak peduli lagi.Perasaan itu bagai hanyut dibuai mimpi.Mimpi yang tidak ada erti.Apa dimimpi apa diimpi bagai tidak dapat dibezakan lagi.Perasaan itu.Jika aku gambarkan perasaan itu seperti botol kaca yang sudah kehabisan isinya dan tertutup rapi.Tidak memberi faedah kepada sesiapa memiliki.Dan aku,pemilik botol kaca itu.Terus,apa harus kulakukan?Kekosongan dalam hatiku tak dapat diisi lagi.Lebih malang,aku sendiri tidak menyedari bila air di dalam botol kacaku kering.Sehinggalah ia menjadi begitu kronik.Bila dihitung-hitung hari nadiku berdenyut di bumi Tuhan ini,aku jagi kaget,aku jadi resah,jadi tidak keruan.Sehingga aku takut untuk melelapkan mataku di malam hari,bimbang tidak melihat esok lagi.Patutkah menyalahkan takdir,kerananya aku jadi begini lalu terus membuat dosa?Adakah wujudnya ekslusi bagi orang berhalusinasi untuk berbuat sesuka hati?Bukan tidak cuba mendekatkan diri pada Ilahi,tetapi barangkali tidak begitu ikhlas niat di hati?Apa mahu dibuktikan pada dunia?Kepandaian,pujian dan disanjung tinggi?Kini apabila semuanya tinggal sisa-sisa,terus apa lagi yang membuktikan kewujudan aku di sini?

Ya,sudahnya,apa kukejar selama ini?

talaa al badru by Shaikh Mishary alafasy.

stupidity is not tolerated here.

hv never tried this.feel like trying once.

ok.actually i was trying to blog in malay but i kinda at lost of what to blog abt.plus am bizzi-dizzy rite now so yeaa me better stop playing around & start doing my work.FOR GOD SAKE anor!!!

oh and dis is something to ponder,sent by a frn through an email.

Mengapa seseorang Yahudi dibolehkan menyimpan janggut untuk mengamalkan kepercayaannya...
...tetapi bila seorang Muslim berbuat demikian, dia dianggap ekstrim dan pengganas?

Mengapa seseorang rahib boleh meliputi keseluruhan tubuhnya kerana memperhambakan diri kepada Tuhannya...
...tetapi bila seseorang Muslimah melakukan begitu, dia ditekan?

Mengapa bila wanita barat menjadi surirumah, dia dihormati kerana dikatakan berkorban untuk keluarganya...
.....tetapi bila wanita Islam berbuat begitu, mereka kata, "dia mesti dibebaskan!"

Mengapa mana-mana gadis boleh ke universiti dengan berpakaian mengikut kesukaannya kerana punyai hak dan kebebasan...
...tetapi bila seseorang wanita Muslim memakai hijab, dia tidak boleh menjejakkan kakinya ke universiti?

Mengapa bila seseorang kanak-kanak meminati sesuatu bidang, dia dikatakan punyai bakat...
...tetapi bila seseorang kanak-kanak meminati Islam, dia dikatakan tak berguna?

Mengapa bila seseorang Kristian atau Yahudi membunuh, agamanya tidak dikaitkan... tetapi baru sahaja seseorang Muslim didakwa melakukan jenayah, nama Islam turut diadili!
Mengapa bila seseorang berkorban diri untuk melihat orang lain hidup, dia amat disanjungi...
...tetapi bila seseorang warga Palestin melakukannya untuk menyelamatkan diri, keluarga, rumahtangga dan masjidnya, dia dikenali sebagai seorang pengganas?

Mengapa bila seseorang memandu kereta mewah dengan cara bahaya, keretanya tidak pernah dipertikaikan....
...tetapi bila seseorang Muslim melakukan kesalahan, orang kata ia adalah kerana agama Islamnya!

Mengapa kita terlalu percaya kepada akhbar...
...tetapi selalu persoalkan apa yang terkandung di dalam Al-Quranul Karim?
Sampaikan jika berasakan ia baik untuk sahabat anda!

done my part.:Pwell i mean yeaa so true.like in Germany,they're forbidding Muslim teachers from wearing scarfs,like wat the heck.its not like she's hiding a bomb in her hair or sumthing!doesn't make sense,does it?well they are just upgrading their imbecility level anyway.now who's the one who is actually oppressing women by denying their rights??it's funny that they don't feel a thing showing off their women's boobs yet feel so unsecure with a Muslim woman covering her head! wat the eF.(sorry,been using harsh words.clearly.STUPIDITY is NOT tolerated here!)

love is..(a poem by me)

love is such a great thing
for the joy that it brings
so beautiful a feeling
grants the life a meaning.

love is genuine and pure
it's a reason to endure
tho' it's vague and obscure
it's a treasure that's for sure.

love is a riddle foreseen
needs neither clue nor a hint
it's not blue nor it's green
it's not tint yet distinct.

love is the seed of existence
travels across any distance
the world smiles with its presence
and filled with tears with its absence.

love is a pleasure undefined
it's enormous yet it's fine
let not the heart rule the mind
for love is a foe when it is blind!

i can handle this!

this weekend and next week will be my busiest week so far since i've been chosen to be the speaker for our paediatrics seminar(out of 25 ppl,they picked my name!!!).tomorrow i'll be having end posting test for ortho,plus i have to present the malunited Colles' case in front of sir before that.and hv to meet mam after class to show the progress of paediatrics seminar.i haven't started practicing OBG seminar yet,i thought i can do it this weekend but i hv to start doing the power point presentation for my topic(for paed) as mam wanted to see it by tuesday(DUH! i hv to present OBG on the same day!)
i knows it seems pretty packed(with the fact that i havent studied ANYTHING at all,for theory exms!!!)but i know,Allah with never burden us with something that we cannot handle.
i can do this!
Dear Allah..pls make everything go smoothly for me..AMIN!

Holy Quran will be burnt?

"Subject:The Holy Quran will be burnt on next Saturday.Carrefour refused to boycott Israeli/American/Denmark Products. KFC (Kentucky Fried Chicken), McDonalds, Hardees, Burger King, Pizza Hutt & Starbucks have decided to buy Denmark Products to save their losses.Denmark wants to Burn the Holy Quran on next Saturday in the large grounds in Coppenhagen (capital city of Denmark ), in reply to the Islamic Boycott on their products. Please let's get together to boycott their products, and pray to Allah Almighty to show them the result of their intentions, which will be a lesson for the whole world. Forward this to as many friends as you can.PLS forward this text to as many Muslims as possible .. Can't u spare 15 minutes in order to spread this message among Muslims .. ASAP? REMEMBER THE PROPHET (SAW) MIGHT ASK YOU ON THE DAY OF JUDGMENT,' WHAT DID YOU DO WHEN THEY MADE FUN OF ME? HOW DID YOU DEFEND ME?' 7-up drink, LEGO, Cadbury chocolates, Hall Chewing gums or any product with barcode no. starting with 57 Please convince all Muslims to circulate this to Muslim ummah to ban Danish made products."

this article was forwarded by a friend of mine through an email.pretty shocking if it were to be true.i mean i don't know how far this boycotting thingy helps our brothers n sisters in Palestine(but i support the idea though),well maybe it helps in the long run,but what on earth will they get by burning our Holy book?it can alwys be reprinted anyway,millions of them.i know it is something that we should be furious at,but for me the most horrifying part is when Quran vanishes from the heart of the believers itself.Non believers disrespect our Holy book because they have bn rejecting it from the beginning but what about us,the so called Muslims,are we any better than them be it literally or practically? Preserving the teachings of Quran by actually practicing it for me is far superior than protecting the physical one.

chapter 25(al-furqan)
(30) "O my Lord! Truly my people took this Qur'an for just foolish nonsense."
(31) Thus have We made for every prophet an enemy among the sinners: but enough is thy Lord to guide and to help.
(32) Those who reject Faith say: "Why is not the Qur'an revealed to him all at once? Thus (is it revealed), that We may strengthen thy heart thereby, and We have rehearsed it to thee in slow, well-arranged stages, gradually.
33) And no question do they bring to thee but We reveal to thee the truth and the best explanation (thereof).

a letter for my brother

dear brother
i ve always wanted to write you a letter,i guess i just never did.i've never even sent you a birthday card,i have totally forgotten to value your existence as i was too absorbed with mine.
i don't know if i hv failed as a sister,or if i failed to show that i care or both but i know,i have somewhat failed.i was being selfish,all that matters to me was my success,my career,my life and none of them includes you.
i don't exactly remember when i started losing track of you.i thought you were okay.i thought they taught you every essence of life at the boarding school,you used to be such a bright student after all.in fact,you were much cleverer than me.remember you represented our state in Tunas Jaya?this must be hard on you,reminiscing your past.
i went through what you went through so no,you have no reason to blame the situation for your abrupt change of behaviour.you have chosen the wrong crowd.you turned wild,you hated mom,you never listened to her.
but believe me.this letter is not aiming to blame you.it's just that,i feel like writing a letter to you,something that i should have done a lonnnngggg long time ago.
i am sorry.
and i am sorry to see you suffer like this.
please don't give up,there's always a light at the end of the tunnel.i will hold your hand and we will walk through the tunnel together.
i love you,and you have to love yourself too.
we are human,and we do commit sins,our duty is to seek for Allah's forgiveness.
i am with you.
so don't be scared,ok?
and Allah is with us,as long as we don't abandon Him.

i wish you read this.

*sighs

the lost soul

the soul struggles to find its way back.
the soul couldn't see,
as it was cloaked by total darkness
the soul couldn't hear,
the soul couldn't feel
the soul was completely helpless
the soul cried but unable to shed any tears
the soul had lost all its senses,
all the senses that made sense
the soul was trapped in a kingdom ruled by Lusts and Desires
which was well guarded by Hatred and Ignorance
the soul couldn't escape
the soul seek freedom
but the freedom backstabbed
and left the soul diseased and lonely
and unattended.
and empty
the soul has lost.
and the lost soul
struggles to find its way back.

my brother dearie,this one is for you.

Cul-de-sac

Shivering in the cold
Secrets got unfold
Wishing to go back
It’s a cul-de-sac

You are not alone
Giving up, you don’t
There’s no place to hide
Hope you’ll find the light

It’s a stranger’s place
And you’re estranged in pace
This is not your fate
No it’s not too late

Open up your eyes
It’s not a time to cry
Find your destiny
Somewhere you’re meant to be

Have a faith in the truth
For it will guide you through
Crushing lust with a thrust
Till it scatters like the dust

From the ground we have come
To the same we’ll succumb
And this world will not last
Look at the time it’s moving fast

Wait no more
Tomorrow’s unsure
Go to where you belong
And be strong…

ps-this is a song actually,composed by me.i first wrote it for pat(lipas yg poyo),i somehow really felt connected to him,i hoped(v v much) he would give up his idea on being an atheist n started believing in Allah once again.n now it's for my beloved brother.let go of the hatred ayin,let go of the guilt,seek Allah's forgiveness day n night,u r a much better person than any1 else for u r the chosen one.

IF by kipling.

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,'
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!


ps-missed my literature class,used to hate it back then

have faith in HIM,HE will guide you through.

salam.
it's been a while ppl..yet years passed with just a blink of an eye.been going through a lot lately,am kinda unstable emotionally.tired of being helpless,witnessing unjustice,witnessing corruptions,and all the bad deeds but couldn't do anything to stop it.it is so exhausting being powerless..and the chosen brothers and sisters of Palestine (peace be upon them)are still being treated like animals by the most cruel and heartless terrorist,the Zionist.don't know when or how will it ends,but i strongly believe that they will confiscate their land back.and i hope i can be among the ppl who help to realize the mission.AMIN.

i am strong.i know it.but i don't know if the ppl around me are strong enough,the ones that i love,are they?my brother.he needs help.he is lost.i really wana guide him to the right path,i wish i could do everything to heal him.to heal his soul.he is not guilty,and i don't blame him at all.it's our fate that brought us to where we are today but NO,i don't blame fate as well.i don't blame anyone.i believe there are blessings behind all this.there must be.even a tiny one.yes i am strong as i do believe in Allah's blessings.i do believe that He is with me,every second that is.i hoped my brother thinks the same way,too.i am so lucky indeed that i wanted to cry realising how lucky i am.yes ive gone through a lot.things that i have never imagined before this,and here i am standing still.but my brother,he wasn't as lucky as i was.he wasn't prepared.and he's young.so he went astray,he commited sins,one after another.until it was unbearable even for an ignorant like him and Allah opens his heart to repent but sadly enough he doesn't know how to repent.he is so far away from the right path.and here i am,listening to the sad story of his,unable to do anything abt it.except for asking help from Allah.and as i was reading the translation oF Holy Quran,i came across this verse:(chapter 64)

No kind of calamity can occur, except with Allah's permission. and if any one believes in Allah, ((Allah)) guides his heart (aright): for Allah knows all things.

He knows best.
And everything did happen for a reason.
I believe in Him.and i believe there's always a way out for every obstacles in life.
I hope that Allah will guide my brother's heart to the rightness.And my other brother's heart and my mother's heart and my father's heart.And yours n mine as well.AMIN