so dats my name.

i hv rarely used my real name except in occasions requiring formality or when writing forms,exam papers etc.ive been called anor eversince the 1st day of my primary school because a frnd who had the same name as mine suggested it(so dat she can be called hidayah)and i,didnt know y,blindly agreed to that(should hv fought for the name!).so dats how i got dat name.when i was a kid i didnt really like my real name because my mom alwys told me dat my name was given by my father instead of her n she wanted to give me a cuter name like putri sumthing2 lol.back then i alwys thought that my siblings have better names than mine because they were my mom's idea and mine was my dad's.besides their names hv 3 words (ahmad syafiq nazmi,ahmad shah nazrin,ahmad imran hakimi)and mine was only 2 plus its not unique at all!so i took anor for my real name n hidayah for my 'other' name.well now i think dat hidayah aint dat bad a name.its beautiful in fact not that i wana brag abt it but i think dat i should be proud of my real name.i still believe that names are prayers too.luckily anor has some meaning too(if read annur).true like whats the point of having good names(u hv nooo idea for how many nights(or years)did ur parents racked their brains to find u a name) if in the end it only can be seen in papers and forms because u don't even bother to use it.n yes now i AM grateful that my name is not as lengthy as my brothers because ppl here think that binti is a name too:\.and if i were to hv children one day ill keep their names short,simple but meaningful n i will not allow their frnds to call em other than that(future psycho mommy haha),kidding.anyway.my point is,i love my name.hidayah is me.anor is me too.

peace.

5 b4 5.

time flies.no.i'd rather say time speeds(sounds weird though).or accelerates.doesnt matter,pretty much the same.i reckoned that time moves so fast i could hardly catch up with it.so yes its been quite a while since i made any sense here in my blog.
revising one hadith.a very popular one too.
grab 5 before 5.

health before sickness
youth before decrepitude
wealth before poverty
leisure before work
life before death

n me being busy as ever,i wondered if i could grab any 5 before the other 5.am i even tryinna grab it?

seeing the dead baby in the labour theatre just now reminds me of death which is so near,yet forgotten.
difference is,the baby died and would straight away go to heaven.
we'll die not even knowing if it's as a muslim or otherwise(nauzubillahiminzalik),save going to heaven!?

forgive me.dear Allah.
for im nothing but a sinner..
dilate our bosom dear God.
from the hatred for others,
from holding grudge twds anyone,
protect us dear Allah
from the hatred of others
or from the evil hearts.
and if we die ya Allah.
ease our death with shahadah..
AMINN.